It was too good to be true. living together, waking up together. it was difficult for me, but I tried not to think. I prefered to leave all thoughts for russia. but he began that hard talk himself. he tried not to hurt me. i answered yhat anyway it will happen. i know myself.
And now I just can't stop thinking. 4 wonderful days on the boat. Free days for sunbathing, swimming, and evenings together. the perfect situation with a perfect man. and now he feels like it was his fault. he shouldn't have brought me to his place, he shouldn't have called and written to me. fuck. i do what I want. always.
i confessed what i think, what i feel. He feels guilty for turning me in love. he talked to me about too big age gap between us. I know that all, but why should I decide something now. I
feel like crying, but I'm not going to, as it will hurt him.