your Personal Jesus
I've reread my notes, written here 3 years ago. another attitude. then it was just a game. now it's not.
I can devide these two things right now. I'm sure. I remember a good talk with Tatiana Vasilievna, who said " calm down, no future, time will pass and you ferget". then it helped...
M:"Imagine us in ten years. I'll be 66, you'll be 32. you at your best age - thirties, I'm old. I won't even be able to make love with you. It's my fault. i shouldn't have taken you here. I didn't expected to hurt you. We're blind. We shoul d think for the future"
I: "You silly. You make me happy. I don't think about the future now. I'm enjoying my time. every minute with you. I know I'll suffer when i come back to Russia, but it's worth it. sleep. Morning is wiser that evening."
But the morning wasn't wiser. I don't need anyone, but him.
I can devide these two things right now. I'm sure. I remember a good talk with Tatiana Vasilievna, who said " calm down, no future, time will pass and you ferget". then it helped...
M:"Imagine us in ten years. I'll be 66, you'll be 32. you at your best age - thirties, I'm old. I won't even be able to make love with you. It's my fault. i shouldn't have taken you here. I didn't expected to hurt you. We're blind. We shoul d think for the future"
I: "You silly. You make me happy. I don't think about the future now. I'm enjoying my time. every minute with you. I know I'll suffer when i come back to Russia, but it's worth it. sleep. Morning is wiser that evening."
But the morning wasn't wiser. I don't need anyone, but him.